I have no hope, only fantasies that people will come to their senses someday. Hope? Nah.

Bad news about depression. The clinical kind? The stuff you’re describing? We don’t have a cure yet. We have stuff that will alleviate symptoms and allow a person to live an almost normal life, but it doesn’t cure it. Worse, you might find a medication that seems to fix it, but your body may eventually adjust to it and the depression will come back.

Talk to your psychiatrist. They should have some suggestions that might help.

I’ve had to deal with depression my entire life. The fight is constant and real. Don’t give up.

Sounds like a contradiction in terms to me.