Nope, autistic burnout. Is the reason I stayed, for someone genuinely struggling.
But now I’m out, never ever again.

I didn’t like the situation, but I still did it because I liked the relationship. I see where is the misunderstanding now. My bad, and thank you

They would stop replying to any message, be overall unreachable, ghosting me when we planned a getaway at that date.
I assumed they needed space. I’m fine with respecting boundaries, even if it stings nonetheless when you miss them.

But stopping literally existing out of the blue?
How much time do you need? Days, weeks? Should I wait for you to contact me? Should we cancel this weekend?
No way to get an answer. No, nothing.
Just toss a coin and try to find out.

I don’t remember which, but on one of my flights, we were distributed eye masks with different colors on each side. If you were wearing the red color on the outside, it meant that you wanted to be left alone. Smart and yey, free eye mask!

In Muay Thai, when your opponent tries to throw a knee, they hold the back of your neck and pull you.
A knee to the stomach or plexus is really powerful, so you have to act fast.
The best defense in those cases is to hold the back of their neck in return, pull them closer so that they cannot strike, and try to throw a knee first.
It ends up with a play of the two opponents holding each other and trying to throw a knee while closing the distance.
And most likely ends up in the dead lock or “hugging” that we see in match.

I’m sure there are other techniques that involve this holding in MMA. Forbidding it would remove those techniques from the game.

I get your point but I wouldn’t choose bitcoin for the sake of its popularity, when there are a thousand times better solutions out there.

You are correct, there are many solutions for cryptocurrencies.
I’ve considered the ETH safe wallet for a while https://safe.global/wallet
I would rather prefer Eth2.0 over Bitcoin, though. Bitcoin is limited, clogged and polluting.

However, the general sentiment this year is so heavily aggressive against any cryptocurrency solution, it is getting weird.
I am worried that if I put any cryptocurrency solution, people would automatically close my page, without even giving it a read.

Without going into too much details, I’d say that I am in a situation reeaaaaaaaaaally close to yours. You may feel invisible, but I see you. Thank you for sharing.

I started working out at a park nearby in the morning. I kinda hate it on the moment, but I reward myself for the last 15 minutes or so, with some creativity.
Freestyle dance (??!), kicking around, doing the cartwheel, random moves. All the while listening to old school hip hop and pretending I’m a hot shot, haha.
Those last minutes are amazing.

I will DM you the YT channels I follow.

do you know of any good resources about improving pain tolerance?

Working out and cold showers are enough on that matter imo

This is exactly what you said. Workout and cold showers.
Even if a cold shower is once a day, it is enough. Willpower is like a muscle, you don’t have to exert it constantly, but regularly.
As for working out, you don’t have to like it, to make it. This is the hard pill to swallow, but struggling is part of it, at least in the beginning.
What I find helpful personally, is to watch a coaching video. You follow the moves of the vlogger at the same pace, and only pause when you can absolutely not take it anymore. I end up cursing at the video and hating my life on the spot.

I recon that it helped me have more control on myself (like pain tolerance). But as for the ADHD you describe, I am not sure I saw any improvement personally.

Reminds me of the movie “Nobody knows”, also from a real story, also Japanese.
Whatsoever, anything relating to kids’ suffering is…it’s hard.

I see all your movies and I give you Oranus
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRQeTojVZlI
You’re welcome

Jumping on the occasion to recommend the community Menslib (from /r/menslib)
!mensliberation@lemmy.ca
It is focused on the struggle of being a man in this patriarchal society, while keeping a healthy mindset and constructive conversations.

Oh great, /r/redpill found Lemmy…
No please be on your way.

I didn’t think about it, but it does read like a buzzfeed

The smell of the homeless crazy person that had the habit of shitting themselves and wearing the same green winter coat even during summer. They would wander off the street every evening and you could smell their presence 30 meters away.
I remember going home every time with the smell stuck on my nostril for half an hour before I could smell anything else.
The smell was nothing I ever experienced in my whole life. I would say it was closer to cadaverine.
Its been 15 years but I can still vividly remember it.
Haunting.

I am trying, because I like the fresh new air of Lemmy and I want to bring more positivity in people everydays life, for a change.
I posted a neutral and genuine question a few days ago and got doomvoted hard, because it contained a buzzword.
Haters gonna be haters, but this thing hurts more that I’d like to admit it. There, I said it.

Not for something that happened, but still a weird explanation :
I tried once to compare in lenght what it feels like to wake up amnesiac and trapped in a Portal like game system, to explain the parallel threads of a GPU, for a technical article at work.
Thank f*ck one of my coworkers kindly told me it was a terrible idea, before making it public to the whole company.

I don’t know where you should look, but clapping rapidly while they are pouring your drink, while shouting “Encore, encore!”, should dissipate the awkwardness.