I didn’t think you were talking about you as a partner for me at all lol. So funny how you had to clarify that twice.

And I get all, but my position still stands. But reading the post again, I guess my initial comment doesn’t really have much to do with it. In the back of my mind I’ll be feeling not-so-special. Best if I stay single until I work on that insecurity properly.

Yhhhh but it’s sorta the same. Like, how many other girls have you used that on? What were their reactions? It just makes me think like that but I have issues…

Damn sounds scary. I hope I don’t get that whatever it is.

Any tips on how to avoid that?

I don’t like that though, being on the receiving end. Thinking about how you’ve done this with other girls. Not a good feeling…

What’s dilaudid and why were you in hospital?

Sounds amazing. Currently doing a 5 day.

I wish I had that type of adhd

That’s amazing.

You’re clearly not going to understand me on this. I’m done.

Did it help?

How long do you think you could go without water as well as food?

How come you did it?

Oh no :/

Wow that’s amazing. I think I might have UC. Did it help your symptoms?

What’s TPN?

Do you know what triggered the cramps?

To be Frank, I can’t see that happening so anyone suggesting me to see a professional it’s just not going to happen.

And, I have A LOT of water weight that keeps me going believe it or not.

I’ve done a lot to my body over my life. I know this is what I need.

How come you went without for two days?

I’m overweight. If I was underweight, then sure, what I’m doing is wrong and unhealthy and dangerous. But I’m not…

Its not that I feel like a failure for eating food either…

And besides. I’d never be able to kill myself through not eating because, if it wasn’t clear enough, I HAVE BINGE EATING DISORDER. And if you don’t know what that is, look up obese people. So in other words, don’t you worry, I get my calories IN, I’m sure more than you.

Sory but I’m sick of all the ‘get help’ comments.

I’m not asking for help…

I initially wanted support earlier since I was feeling down. I got it.

I wasn’t asking for help on this.

Ok whatever. I don’t expect everyone to agree or understand.

Like I said, 7+ day dry fasts have been done.

I live in a cold country and am very sedentary. The 60 hours I just did without water was actually great and not in a delirious way. You don’t understand the abuse I’ve put my body through by drinking and eating way way too much, not listening to my body properly.

I know what I’m doing. For the regular person, I’m sure it would be bad for but I’m not the regular person.

Actually yes, some life forms do need to not eat and I’m one of them. Like I said, I eat waaay too much in general AND this has been done by many others before for therapeutic purposes etc and they’ve been fine. And what I meant by support me was support me in doing this. And by understand I meant truly understand my reasoning for doing so and see the genuine goodness that will come from it.

To be completely honest, I already feel like I’m dead. Decaying. If I die, it will be the rotten no good parts of me that die. I’m prepared for that to happen. My life sucks as it is. One week In the grand scheme of things is nothing.