I don’t agree but I can understand that it is possible, however as someone that used to post adult content professionally on Reddit, I’m going to let you know that there is some WEIRD SHIT going on with their porn subs that seemingly Spez orchestrates at a site level. It is not like posting on Twitter (at the time, now I don’t use Reddit or Twitter at all ofc), Lemmy, OnlyFans, TikTok, or any other site, adult or otherwise.

Posting OC porn on Reddit is made to be deliberately difficult, you have to submit custom doxxing pictures to mods privately on any bigger sub, the little subs get very little traffic unless it’s like a niche kink. They often but not always have rules like no professionals or SWers, OC only, but then allow Amaranth posts from a fan as if she isn’t a sex worker like anyone else lol. Crossposting or even posting the same picture more than once across 2 forums can earn removal or bans, eg a see through top + wet panties in one pic qualifies for 2 diff subs, but I can only post that pic to 1 of them or risk permaban. And there’s more actually in how difficult they make it to post but it’s kinda boring in terms of details.

Will say, I made my own subreddit - that got removed, no notice or warnings, even though it was active and no site violations and was doing well for at least 6 months.

The girls who are popular on Reddit are not organically so. The posts that are popular are not organically so. They are being promoted by Reddit and the mods themselves. They act as their pimps and stop others from taking any attention or money away from their girls. I am not joking. He is part of the Maxwell stuff.

Singing also helps with this too, idk if you enjoy that but even humming works.

I don’t really expect anything from you any which way, I mean that nicely, no worries. Take care

There’s always tomorrow. It’s a good sign you don’t want to be like the person who hurt you and already differentiates you from them as a parent. You are already doing better than your mom by thinking that.

That “worms” feeling and the staying up late is because your brain is using histamine and adrenaline (plus other stuff) to make a lot of neural connections that were already close by. It will mildly restrict blood flow from smaller capillaries too. You can keep that busy or more switched off mentally by exercising and especially doing something that moves your eyes and the muscles under your eyes, eg face yoga. That gets the circulation going back into the small capillaries and helps you reset biochemically. Even just flexing your undereyes (like John Wayne squints) will encourage blood flow in your face and help.

It is a lot of work and pain now, but it is absolutely worth it to see through the bullshit and heal yourself. I am a happier person for it 1000%. It’s worth it to be brave but go slow and don’t push it. Take breaks.

Therapists can be hit or miss (a bad one is worse than no therapist), but you can find one that specializes in BPD that can help guide you (not that you per se have it, but they work with it a lot and can help you understand it really well). BPD, even residual fleas from parents, is VERY treatable with dialectal behavior therapy and talk therapy as long as the person wants to learn and the therapist is adequate (some aren’t).

To be honest, opening this knowledge up can be overwhelming and can take years. Take your time with it. I still get new memories of abuse that my brain had sort of locked away, it gets easier to assimilate over time though once you have a good foundation/framework for the trauma. The 2 best things for you to remember, is that 1) your mom’s traits are hers, not automatically yours or every mom’s or every woman’s, because she has her own mental illness that is just a “her” thing and 2) good rolemodels you had as a kid besides her, even teachers or therapists or TV personalities

He has been sexually abused by her, perhaps covertly. There is enough in what you described that if I was a mandated reporter, I’d be making a call. From what I know of CSA, he has multiple flags and signs of being sexually abused (nearly every sentence you wrote, actually). Kids don’t run around with their genitals put like that, chasing people, unless they were abused. Literally every developmentally delayed perskn I’ve known to do that ended up being sexually abused. Did he bed wet or soil his bedding at night as well, well into older age, eg middle school age, when he shouldn’t have been doing that?

Highly recommend, when you feel okay to do so, to look up emotional incest first, and parentification/adultification. That will explain how your mother has been grooming your brother to be her stand-in husband. The reason she didn’t want him to go to school is because a husband her age wouldn’t go to school (they are also full of mandated reporters - did she also avoid taking him to doctors and dentists?).

It sounds like your mom also had an emotionally incestuous relationship with you as well, so reading that material can be extremely “triggering” for you. My sincere condolences, it is very traumatizing. Reading about it can bring up old memories as your brain tries to organize old memories with this new information. Often people get tired, agitated, or even regress in age. Give yourself plenty of time to mentally adjust and read and lots of breaks outside walking around, ideally in nature, w eyeballs moving around and looking up at trees or clouds. OR you can try to play a game like Tetris afterwards (Tetris is specifically studied as being helpful for PTSD/trauma).

I will also rec the book The Borderline Mother, I’m not sure this applies to her at all, but my guess is that it does

https://www.reddit.com/r/raisedbyborderlines/comments/1gle1x1/my_summary_of_understanding_the_borderline_mother/

And if it does, also recommend the book Stop Caretaking the Borderline or Narcissist. Likely you already do much of this which is why you’re the “black sheep” (aka you dont give her supply).

Encouraging suicidal ideation

Nathan for You idea

I heard walking with umbrellas will confuse gait detection but idk if true

Buy it from Goodwill and throw it away at the dump later

u/spez was the lead moderator of r/jailbait, and when he was caught, he got rid of mod transparency. Ghilisaine Maxwell was likely a l lead moderator of news Reddits as well (u/MaxwellHill). Reddit has always been compromised.

Yes, me personally, I used to play competitive World of Warcraft. Did timed challenge mode dungeons for realm’s best at end of MoP too.

Used to game with him back in MoP. Sad to see this is where he ended up.

No, only war

He’s propped up by foreign governments.

People die in heat and live in their cars.

It’s just called dry camping, some people don’t have a choice.

I’m emphasizing that even if she had left them.in her home for that long, it is wrong. Obviously it is worse because of the car

Dry camping is just a term for sleeping in your car. It isn’t literally camping per se but it can be.

You have to use an AC when it’s hot out or you’ll die.

Using a clothes dryer has a bigger impact than a hybrid car running AC.

If they have a hybrid, the engine doesn’t idle all night, only intermittently to charge the battery.

It is more ethical and better for the environment to leave a hybrid running all night (engine only kicking on every so often) than a typical home or apartment which has a much bigger daily carbon impact. A hybrid isn’t the same as a normal idling car.

People die in heat and live in their cars. Do you go without air conditioning when it’s over 100 degrees out? No, because you don’t want to die of heatstroke, right? So why is your indoor climate control more justified?

And yeah car exhaust is bad for everyone, I agree, including the person in the idling car.

If they have a hybrid, it is more ethical and better for the environment to leave it running all night (engine only kicking on every so often) than a typical home or apartment which has a much bigger daily carbon impact.

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